At this point in our lives, we are the grand summation of all sparks that came before. There were many jobs left irresponsibly unfinished, calls unreturned. But for these iniquities we have not yet been struck from the Earth, despite our shame in leaving all this business unattended to. No one of import has judged us, and those who have done so have had little to no significant impact. We are still on the plane. Somehow, we are still here. Breathing, living, dying, feeling. Funny then, all the worry and regret and frustration and awkward embarrassment that we have felt.
What has it been for?
There have been countless more good things, even for the most supposedly selfish among us. Do you actively remember all the times you held doors open, smiled at strangers, or donated something you cared about? Do you try to conjure up memories daily of the happy, innocent kid you used to be, even if you weren’t that kid every day? Or are you still thinking about adult business unattended to, jobs that remain to be done, and responsibilities you should not have avoided? Weren't we once all smiling kids like the ones we see in parks and strollers and playing with their friends? Ignorance is not an excuse, but innocence is a reason.
Well, since the only thing that is real is this precise, present moment, both negativity and optimism are factually incorrect figments of our imagination, whether projected into the past or thrown into the future.
The question we should be asking ourselves the very second we wake up every morning: on which side would you rather err? The hardships and the joys are of life are not our fault, but they are our responsibilities, and every single second we have a choice of how to go about things, regardless of what just happened and what is just about to.
Whichever pill you do take, though, it doesn’t really matter. Whether you like it or not, you are who you are: the grand summation of all sparks of both guile and frailty in your own life and in the lives of everyone that came before you. Whichever tablet you choose to swallow doesn’t really matter, but you are better off trying to do what is vital, trying to do what is right, and being positive about it.
Remember: if you’re probably wrong, and it doesn’t matter anyway, on which side you would rather err in your day to day life? Negative, or positive?
Don’t ever let anyone tell you that you don’t have a choice in the matter. You are already the result of great things that have happened, atomically, biologically, and socially.
Make the correct mistake, whichever one it may be.